My Physical Symptoms of The Ascension Process

The following is an account of my five year health crisis from March 2002 - June 2008. I offer it here for all those who suffer, who feel misunderstood, confused, alone and helpless. It is my hope that in sharing my own journey of physical suffering, during the physical aspect of my own ascension process, that it inspires others to believe and to know that it is possible to come through this as I have done.

Morning of collapse (March 16th 2002) got out of bed, stood up and my legs gave way. Collapsed and was bedridden for three months during which time I could not walk unaided, could not cope with any sensory stimulation ie; tv, music and stayed in a room in complete silence feeling like I was dying unable to do anything but lay there. I was unable to converse for more than the bearest of words. I could not sit up as my body would not hold me up and for a 24 hour period I was unable to open my eyes at all because my body did not have the energy to keep them open. Nothing mattered to me anymore, not the books or clothes or objects in the room. I felt as if I was dying and everything seemed to lose any interest or connection.

Two weeks into the collapse (easter 2002) I experienced dying and did almost die. I was alone at the time.

The following is a list of symptoms that began on 16th March 2002 and that I have suffered since - although over the years they lessened to a great degree. These symptoms were at their worst in first two years and still very bad three years on. I was bedridden on and off for most of the first 18 months and then couch bound for a further 18 months. For the past 18 months I was mainly housebound as I battled with one symptom or another.

This process has caused the following:

* Reaction to cold weather and cold winds - triggers feelings of illness, temperature extremes and exhaustion
* Headaches and blinding migraines (also triggered by crying and bright light)
* Nausea which was most days and early hours of mornings waking me
* Temperature extremes - when out and during the night, hot and cold at same time or independently.
* Lower legs throbbed constantly for first three years
* Weak arm and leg muscles most noticeable walking up a hill or incline.
* Exhaustion and tiredness.
* Ringing/humming/buzzing feeling in body which worsens with stress or is extreme when in a medically undiagnosed hypoglycaemic attack.
* Looked very pale and tired all of the time
* Breathing difficulties triggered by H-attack, illness or stress
* Excessive heat caused weakness and faint feelings
* Palpitations and Cardiac Arrhythmia
* Dizziness and room appearing to move ‘up and down’
* Poor memory, memory loss
* Sweating during night, bad dreams, broken sleep through feeling unwell.

Symptoms during first two years

* No life force or energy - as if I was dying from a terminal illness
* Extreme itching - words can not describe how harrowing this was
* Reflux feeling with fluid coming into my throat and as if I was swallowing lump
* Weak bladder - often did not make it to loo on time - sudden urges
* Totally drained, lifeless and unable to do anything other than lie down
* Three menustrations in 6 weeks
* For first three months of collapse could not watch tv, listen to radio, read or talk for more than a few minutes. Lay in a bed in a room without any stimuli
* Could not sit in front of computer for one and a half years and then could only manage five minutes at a time as I would feel instantly --wiped out and have to lie down for hours to recover from minutes in front of it
* Was unable to bath or shower for three months - when eventually I attempted a bath (with a friend on standby) it took three days to recover from the experience where I just lay like a limp doll - exhausted, totally drained and ill
* Any attempt to do anything would exhaust me and I would spend days recovering from the ill effects of attempting, ie, cooking a boiled egg, etc..
* Could not sit unaided for three months and was bed bound and laying down for that time.
* Severe nausea and diarreah for first two and a half years.
* Blinding migraines triggered by light or crying (never had before)
* Legs would throb intensely when senses were accosted with sounds, aromas and anything stressful or violent in films or on tv (when I eventually could watch it)
* Severe hypoglycaemic attacks (all blood sugar blood tests totally normal) daily where I would literally collapse with illness from-attacks and be left feeling in a bad state of shock (as if I had witnessed a bad traffic accident)
* Extremes of temperature triggered by heat or cold rendering me close to fainting or freezing cold despite all attempts to get warm
* Slightest disharmony or stress would exacerbate symptoms to an extreme
* Due to exhaustive effects I was unable to bath or shower for three years with any regularity and even now I have to make the most of a day where such feels possible
* Never got hungry would just start to feel an ‘attack’ coming on. Signs of attack were knawing in stomach (which in first 18 months was constant), shaking, waves of heat, sweating, palpitations and a total energy drain feeling like a deflated doll.
* Shaking/humming/buzzing going through my whole body.
* Breathing difficulties
* Feel faint and heat would be intolerable
* Extreme weakness, pallor
* Feel very ill
* Muddled thinking, ‘trippy’ (which would worsen the longer without food, literally worsening by the minute). Panic to get food in me before reaching a dangerous level which feels like I would have gone into a coma. Never did because I always had access to food.

This experience has been part of my ascension process

Update

From October 01, 2006 to date, I have been struck with an inexplicable 'balance' problem that leaves me feeling 'drunk' and as if on a ship. I am not able to lay down at all and have consequently been upright 24 hours a day since. I have to sleep sitting up. Any move to incline sends my head spinning and brings an intense feeling of nausea with it. Until a couple of months ago, I was unable to be in the dark as this would also intensify the feelings. The whole experience has been exhausting, very challenging and again, highly mysterious due to the constant 24 hour dizziness. These past two months (now June 08) it has begun to ease during the day and that is an absolute God send. However, the nights remain the issue. I have almost forgotten what it feels like to lay down! Still, I just stay in trust that this condition has manifested for many reasons, most of which I believe are to do with the changing planetary frequencies and energy realignments, of which I am acutely sensitive to. At a personal level, it is going to be about me re-balancing as I come out of the six years of illness I write of above.